every mistake... replaying itself...
God help me...
Friday 26 November 2010
Wednesday 24 November 2010
reflecting on the past year
it seems only fitting to do so, after the end of this gruelling year.
Of all things, this year has been a year of learning. Learning to be independent without family, learning to cook, to wash, to clean, learning at the bedside, learning what it truly means to practice medicine. Learning what it means to trust God every step of the way.
OSCE just ended, and I know in some ways I'm being harsh on myself, but I also know I didn't do well. For the written test too. I also know deep down inside me there is a great fear, a fear of losing all that I've accomplished, losing all that I've worked so hard for. And an even greater fear, that if you ask me, if I do lose all of that this year, will I still trust God? Father you've searched my heart, you know my ways... help me Father, hear my plea, let me say that come what may, I will trust in the Lord my God my Saviour. Be still my prideful soul.
And God? I know you hear this too- PLEASE help me to pass. pretty please?
amen.
Of all things, this year has been a year of learning. Learning to be independent without family, learning to cook, to wash, to clean, learning at the bedside, learning what it truly means to practice medicine. Learning what it means to trust God every step of the way.
OSCE just ended, and I know in some ways I'm being harsh on myself, but I also know I didn't do well. For the written test too. I also know deep down inside me there is a great fear, a fear of losing all that I've accomplished, losing all that I've worked so hard for. And an even greater fear, that if you ask me, if I do lose all of that this year, will I still trust God? Father you've searched my heart, you know my ways... help me Father, hear my plea, let me say that come what may, I will trust in the Lord my God my Saviour. Be still my prideful soul.
And God? I know you hear this too- PLEASE help me to pass. pretty please?
amen.
Thursday 11 November 2010
i guess not
mock osce.
Should i go back?
Proverbs 3:6 seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Devo says 'we don't make plans and then simply ask God to bless them. God is God. Because He is God, He is worthy of my trust and obedience. I will find rest nowhere but in His holy will, a will that is unspeakably beyond my largest notions of what He is up to.'
"Through you, I can do anything, I can do all things, for it's You who gives me strength. Nothing is impossible. I believe."
i guess i'm not going. Trust. It's not a bargain it's not a bargain it's not a bargain. Whatever happens, your will be done.
Should i go back?
Proverbs 3:6 seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Devo says 'we don't make plans and then simply ask God to bless them. God is God. Because He is God, He is worthy of my trust and obedience. I will find rest nowhere but in His holy will, a will that is unspeakably beyond my largest notions of what He is up to.'
"Through you, I can do anything, I can do all things, for it's You who gives me strength. Nothing is impossible. I believe."
i guess i'm not going. Trust. It's not a bargain it's not a bargain it's not a bargain. Whatever happens, your will be done.
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