I'm so blessed. I really am. There's just so much love around me. During the few days I've been in Malacca, I've been spoilt rotten by my grandparents.
Bruised-cut-banana-left-in-the-open-for-many-hours-and-got-oxidised-rotten. And my cousins! I LOVE them to bits!
And... I hate goodbyes. Take today for example:
The taxi's supposed to come at 2. At 12, I was all packed. Grandma was a flurry of activity- packing food, food and more food for me to bring back up. Watching her pack, S.H.E's song Always On My Mind came to mind.
如果能有什么送你，我也不会这样着急，至少有部分的我陪着你。
If there's something I could give you, I wouldn't be so flustered, at least a part of me will remain with you.
If there's something I could give you, I wouldn't be so flustered, at least a part of me will remain with you.
Guess that's how she feels... my heart ached. Remembering what she said about her only wish is to live to see us graduate and get married and have kids, it almost made me want to simply choose the shortest course and graduate, grab the first guy off the street and head off to the church and registrar, just to make her happy. Sigh... poor grandma. And grandpa.
My autistic cousin, Sheng Yan was also dealing with his parting woes, albeit in quite another manner. He clung to my side the whole time, asking me why I couldn't leave a day later.
At 1.45, the taxi came. "So early..." Grandpa said. I felt that familiar lump in my throat... and determinedly swallowed it down. Having put all my luggage in the boot, I hugged everyone tightly. Sheng Yan valiantly tried to hold onto my arm and continue a conversation with me. Probably he figured if we kept on talking, I couldn't leave...
Grandpa and grandma closed the car door after me. We waved one last goodbye, and the car turned the corner.
I dissolved into tears...
I'm so melodramatic XD But see why I hate goodbyes??
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One of the nights in Malacca, I really couldn't sleep, and I had a notebook and a pen with me. So tada! Some more random feelings. Flo and Ming Yi, if you're reading this I'm so sorry! I felt like writing in Mandarin more than I did in English. Sorry!
冬天的也许
也许时间可以倒退
也许现在只属幻觉...
冬天爱上了秋天
爱得心力交瘁
却说不清到底爱上了她什么
也许冬天再勇敢一些
就能与秋天一起分享春天的美丽
一起享受夏天相恋的热情
冬天，却选择了沉默
你问他为什么？
冬天说
也许时间可以倒退
退至我还没爱上她的时候
也许现在只属幻觉
我根本没爱上她
秋天与我之间存在着太多太多的也许
我选择了沉默
至少与秋天拥有不会分手的肯定
因为太多的也许
最后, 也只是也许...
My autistic cousin, Sheng Yan was also dealing with his parting woes, albeit in quite another manner. He clung to my side the whole time, asking me why I couldn't leave a day later.
At 1.45, the taxi came. "So early..." Grandpa said. I felt that familiar lump in my throat... and determinedly swallowed it down. Having put all my luggage in the boot, I hugged everyone tightly. Sheng Yan valiantly tried to hold onto my arm and continue a conversation with me. Probably he figured if we kept on talking, I couldn't leave...
Grandpa and grandma closed the car door after me. We waved one last goodbye, and the car turned the corner.
I dissolved into tears...
I'm so melodramatic XD But see why I hate goodbyes??
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One of the nights in Malacca, I really couldn't sleep, and I had a notebook and a pen with me. So tada! Some more random feelings. Flo and Ming Yi, if you're reading this I'm so sorry! I felt like writing in Mandarin more than I did in English. Sorry!
冬天的也许
也许时间可以倒退
也许现在只属幻觉...
冬天爱上了秋天
爱得心力交瘁
却说不清到底爱上了她什么
也许冬天再勇敢一些
就能与秋天一起分享春天的美丽
一起享受夏天相恋的热情
冬天，却选择了沉默
你问他为什么？
冬天说
也许时间可以倒退
退至我还没爱上她的时候
也许现在只属幻觉
我根本没爱上她
秋天与我之间存在着太多太多的也许
我选择了沉默
至少与秋天拥有不会分手的肯定
因为太多的也许
最后, 也只是也许...
5 comments:
As always,parting is a part of life and its painful,yes,i know,been through it every year when i go to singapore =P
And by the time u reach ur grandma and grandpa that age,all this doesnt matter anymore,career,money,even boys,haha,doesnt matter =P
Their only concern is family =P
So,appreciate la,time no turning and i am wasting every bit of it T_T
hahahah..i wrote a few if onlys too..hahahahaha
Hey Rachel..sorry..haven't visited your blog in a long long time. It's ok! Feel free to express yourself in any language you want.. =) it's your blog..
Hmm..I think I can understand how you feel..since I felt that way too last month about my grandparents..=|
hey you, im surprised you found my blog =P and im glad you had fun in malacca! so did you get a call from them?
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