A Blog Post for God

People say that you can be who you want to be, it's just whether you allow yourself that opportunity or not. But God, what do You say?

I think You say that I can be whoever I want to be, after all, You gave Adam and Eve choices, You gave me too. You gave him a choice as well.

Choice. What an ironic word. God, I'm so sorry I'm emo-ing here. If You're too busy, don't bother listening alright? I know there are a lot of people out there who need You too. You go tend to them first okay? You said that there is a time for everything under the sun, so I'm just selfishly hoping that this happens to be the time where You read blog posts.

Where was I? Ah yes. Choice. Someone once said that feelings fade away, but choices last forever. But if a choice were to overlap another choice, does that mean the choice before no longer has its impact?

Father, You know how hard I've been trying to learn maturity. I need Your help. I can't do it alone. Stop me from trying to take my future into my own Hands, but to leave it safely in Yours. I don't know about him, but if he is trying to take control, God, help him to remember that it's still You who are, and always will be, in control.

Father, You know how stubborn I am. You know how much it hurts for me to say this, but I know I must ask this of You. God, if this is not meant to be, please take it away from my heart. Please help me to learn to let go. If this is meant to be, Father, please keep it burning. If this is not meant to be now, but some time later in Your plan, please give us the wisdom to know when, and the courage to take that step of faith.

Father, You know the deepest desire of my heart. But, I pray that not my will, but Thine be done, in my life as it is in heaven.

Psalms 147: 3 -"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."

Thanks for Your patience and friendship God, and for promising to carry me through all my sorrow and pain. Thank you especially for tahan-ing my stupidity =)

I love you God.

In Jesus' Name I pray,

Amen.