情歌

记得我的朋友写了一首歌《我不傻》， 当时觉得歌词好美：

只要你快乐，失去爱情那又如何
我不傻，就算只剩下昨日的拥抱
只要你快乐，付出什么都是值得
我会在远方默默的祝福着。

今天想起，觉得有点凄凉与惋惜， 却不知道是为了谁。是为了写歌人的痴情？ 还是为了听歌人的残忍？而又有多少人真正做到舍己为人？

My first tag

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Rachel
Birth Date: 25/12/1988
Current Status: Single
Eye Colour: Black
Hair Colour: Black
Righty or Lefty: Righty


Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: Chinese/Hokkien
Your Fears: Failure, rejection, all creepy-crawlies, heights
Your Weaknesses: Pride, impatience, emotionalism
Your Perfect Pizza: Lots of cheese and crabsticks and not a single pineapple!


Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: Sleep some more
Your Bedtime:12-4am
Your Most Missed Memory: Childhood

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi Or Coke: Neither
McDonald's or Burger King: McD!!
Single or Group Dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino!! (Too bad I’m lactose intolerant)


Layer Five: Do You......
Smoke: Never did and never will
Curse: Minimally, but I’m trying not to at all
Have a crush: No
Think you've been in love: Yes
Go To School: No. Too old for school—uni now remember?
Want to get married: Definitely
Believe in yourself: I believe God can do all things, not me.
Think you're a health freak: Junk food rocks!!!


Layer Six: In The Past Month......
Have you...
Drank Alcohol: No
Gone to the Mall: Yes
Been on Stage: No
Eaten sushi: At Genki Sushi’s
Dyed your hair: No, but I would love to =)


Layer Seven: Have you ever......
Played a Stripping Game: Yes, and loved it, since I wasn’t the one stripping =P
Changed who you were to fit in: No


Layer Eight: You're Hoping
To Be Married: Before I’m 30
For a: Miracle


Layer Nine: In a Guy/Girl
Best Eye + Best hair colour combination: Doesn’t matter
Short or long hair: Guys- short; girls- take your pick


Layer Ten: What were you doing
1 Min ago: Doing this tag
1 Hour ago: Watching tv
4.5 Hours ago: Shopping
1 Month Ago: Emo-ing
1 Year Ago: Preparing for AS


Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence
I Love: being loved
I Feel: lost
I Hate: being lonely
I Miss: so many people
I Need: to be braver

Layer Twelve : Tag Five people
1. Cher Hui
2. Chak Hoong
3. Meng Suan
4. Li Yenn
5. Nicholas

A Blog Post for God

People say that you can be who you want to be, it's just whether you allow yourself that opportunity or not. But God, what do You say?

I think You say that I can be whoever I want to be, after all, You gave Adam and Eve choices, You gave me too. You gave him a choice as well.

Choice. What an ironic word. God, I'm so sorry I'm emo-ing here. If You're too busy, don't bother listening alright? I know there are a lot of people out there who need You too. You go tend to them first okay? You said that there is a time for everything under the sun, so I'm just selfishly hoping that this happens to be the time where You read blog posts.

Where was I? Ah yes. Choice. Someone once said that feelings fade away, but choices last forever. But if a choice were to overlap another choice, does that mean the choice before no longer has its impact?

Father, You know how hard I've been trying to learn maturity. I need Your help. I can't do it alone. Stop me from trying to take my future into my own Hands, but to leave it safely in Yours. I don't know about him, but if he is trying to take control, God, help him to remember that it's still You who are, and always will be, in control.

Father, You know how stubborn I am. You know how much it hurts for me to say this, but I know I must ask this of You. God, if this is not meant to be, please take it away from my heart. Please help me to learn to let go. If this is meant to be, Father, please keep it burning. If this is not meant to be now, but some time later in Your plan, please give us the wisdom to know when, and the courage to take that step of faith.

Father, You know the deepest desire of my heart. But, I pray that not my will, but Thine be done, in my life as it is in heaven.

Psalms 147: 3 -"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."

Thanks for Your patience and friendship God, and for promising to carry me through all my sorrow and pain. Thank you especially for tahan-ing my stupidity =)

I love you God.

In Jesus' Name I pray,

Amen.

白痴

人生自是有情痴，此恨不关风与月！

我一直都不明白为何作者会用恨来形容爱情，明明爱得那么深，又怎么会有恨呢？现在，我终于明白了。 不是爱得不够，而是爱得太深，所以恨自己放不开手，恨自己太痴情。

从小，我对爱情充满了憧憬，别人说我傻，我也一笑置之，从不理会。也许是我太天真了吧。。 可是，如果失去理想是变成熟的代价，那我宁可永远幼稚。这世上真的没有所谓的山盟海誓，天长地久吗？

欧阳修曾写过一句话：“心似双丝网, 终有千千结。” 我，终于晓得他的心境了-- 整颗心好像是用成千上万的结组成的，一拉一条结就痛一次。我心我情谁能晓？谁是解铃系铃人？

主，但愿我能在您身上获得平静与勇气。

刚刚听了一首蛮贴切的歌，想在这里分享一下。

紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

有一句感慨
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
心

献给世上所有的伤心人。记得要快乐！