I've always loved blogging, but lately... it's been getting tough. Sometimes there's just nothing to say, and sometimes there's too much...
Just suddenly, you realise that the blogging realm isn't your own private cocoon, and there are unforgiving eyes reading your innermost thoughts and judging.
And you chaff yourself for idealistically thinking that the world's a beautiful place- all sunshine and four-leaf clover~
where men and women could walk hand in hand like the boys and girls of yesteryear...
where every hurt could be soothed away, every tear wiped dry...
where only words of love flowed abundantly...
where innocence and warmth prevailed...
I guess what I'm trying to say is... my last few weeks weren't the greatest, hence the last Frustration post. There was hurt, unforgiveness, envy, pain... and I, priding myself a mature young woman, took it like a child. Like a spoilt brat.
But He changed it all.
In church that fateful Sunday, pastor was talking about grace.
Everyone needs compassion
a love that's never ending
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
the kindness of a savior
The hope of nations
Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
Indeed. Everyone needs compassion. Everyone needs forgiveness. Mercy fell upon me once again that morning.
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
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We had an intriguing discussion a few centuries back at Carl's Junior.
Assuming this was possible, would you marry yourself?
Come on, think with me!! It's a fascinating topic!!
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Okay okay... I can hear the flies buzzing. Laugh k... it's funny =P
Alright I'll get on with it.
Almost all of us dream of marrying the right someone, having cute kids and growing old together... but the thought of marriage- to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do you part... beautiful, and yet scary. Guess I'm not ready.
Back to the question.
Makes you really start to think about how you see yourself huh.. You mentally tick off your good points and flaws and slowly weigh and consider (if you're as bored as I am). Personal stock check session. Then you have the answer- of how in love with yourself you are =P
Then it gets a bit more serious. And you start to wonder what does God think of you. Scary road to go down. At least for me.
Then this love song comes to mind... and suddenly it's not eros love, but agape...
God sings:
Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes and describe it to me
Just close your eyes and describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight
That's what I see through your eyes
I sing:
Here in the night I see the sun
Here in the dark our two hearts are one
It's out of my hands
I can't stop what You have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through Your eyes
I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now it feels like enough
And I see a girl who is learning to trust
That's who I see through Your eyes
You and I sing:
And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with You forever
*sighs*
So easy to get caught up in the passion of the moment,
and dwindle down the next...
So simple to write thought-provoking heartwarming sentences,
yet so hard to mean every word written...
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So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
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Ultimately...
Peace...
And the world?
It's still a beautiful place- all sunshine and four leaf clover...
Men and women will still walk hand in hand like the boys and girls of yesteryear...
Every hurt can still be soothed, every tear wiped dry...
Words of love will still flow abundantly...
Innocence and warmth will still prevail...
Why?
I guess it's a matter of perspective.
And divine intervention =)
Now if I could just keep holding onto this joy~
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I almost forgot.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GRACE TAY HUI LING!!
P.S. terence faster post up photos!! but no rush =)
