Looking through Your eyes

For those who've been checking this page in vain, I'm sorry for the complete silence.

I've always loved blogging, but lately... it's been getting tough. Sometimes there's just nothing to say, and sometimes there's too much...

Just suddenly, you realise that the blogging realm isn't your own private cocoon, and there are unforgiving eyes reading your innermost thoughts and judging.

And you chaff yourself for idealistically thinking that the world's a beautiful place- all sunshine and four-leaf clover~

where men and women could walk hand in hand like the boys and girls of yesteryear...
where every hurt could be soothed away, every tear wiped dry...
where only words of love flowed abundantly...
where innocence and warmth prevailed...

I guess what I'm trying to say is... my last few weeks weren't the greatest, hence the last Frustration post. There was hurt, unforgiveness, envy, pain... and I, priding myself a mature young woman, took it like a child. Like a spoilt brat.



But He changed it all.



In church that fateful Sunday, pastor was talking about grace.

Everyone needs compassion

a love that's never ending

Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness

the kindness of a savior

The hope of nations

Savior

He can move the mountains

My God is mighty to save

Indeed. Everyone needs compassion. Everyone needs forgiveness. Mercy fell upon me once again that morning.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

that saved a wretch like me

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We had an intriguing discussion a few centuries back at Carl's Junior.

Assuming this was possible, would you marry yourself?

Come on, think with me!! It's a fascinating topic!!

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Okay okay... I can hear the flies buzzing. Laugh k... it's funny =P

Alright I'll get on with it.

Almost all of us dream of marrying the right someone, having cute kids and growing old together... but the thought of marriage- to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do you part... beautiful, and yet scary. Guess I'm not ready.


Back to the question.

Makes you really start to think about how you see yourself huh.. You mentally tick off your good points and flaws and slowly weigh and consider (if you're as bored as I am). Personal stock check session. Then you have the answer- of how in love with yourself you are =P


Then it gets a bit more serious. And you start to wonder what does God think of you. Scary road to go down. At least for me.

Then this love song comes to mind... and suddenly it's not eros love, but agape...

God sings:

Look at the sky

Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes and describe it to me

The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight

That's what I see through your eyes

I sing:

Here in the night I see the sun

Here in the dark our two hearts are one

It's out of my hands

I can't stop what You have begun

And love just took me by surprise

Looking through Your eyes

I look at myself

And instead I see us

Whoever I am now it feels like enough

And I see a girl who is learning to trust

That's who I see through Your eyes

You and I sing:

And there are some things we don't know

Sometimes a heart just needs to go

And there is so much I'll remember

Underneath the open sky with You forever

*sighs*

So easy to get caught up in the passion of the moment,

and dwindle down the next...

So simple to write thought-provoking heartwarming sentences,

yet so hard to mean every word written...

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So take me as you find me

All my fears and failures

Fill my life again

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

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Ultimately...

Peace...

And the world?

It's still a beautiful place- all sunshine and four leaf clover...

Men and women will still walk hand in hand like the boys and girls of yesteryear...

Every hurt can still be soothed, every tear wiped dry...

Words of love will still flow abundantly...

Innocence and warmth will still prevail...

Why?

I guess it's a matter of perspective.

And divine intervention =)

Now if I could just keep holding onto this joy~

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I almost forgot.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GRACE TAY HUI LING!!

P.S. terence faster post up photos!! but no rush =)