It's so easy to get caught up with the motions of everyday life, to see the same faces everyday-say hello and goodbye, and then to pray asking God to help you to impact the lives around you... and then to live the next day the exact same way you lived the day before.
Just for a moment... SLOW DOWN... STOP whatever you're doing... LOOK around you...
and think.
What is your purpose in life? Is your purpose all about you or about the people around you? Have you found one at all? Or will your purpose in life end up being your search for a purpose in life? How much do you care whether you have one? Fifty years down the road, will you be ashamed of the purpose you've chosen and wish you could start over? Will you try to hide behind a facade of lies then?
I love this passage from Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll.
'...Alice comes to a fork in the road and asks the Cheshire Cat which direction she should take. Cheshire cat says, "Well, that depends a great deal on where you'd like to go."
To which Alice replies, "I don't care much."
"Then it doesn't matter which way you walk," the Cat answers.'
Do you care about which direction you should take?
Oh God, channel my passion in the right direction, reveal to me Your purpose in this life.
I know this is random...
But quoting from John Eldredge in Wild at Heart:
"Not every woman wants a battle to fight, but every woman yearns to be fought for...
She wants to be more than noticed, she wants to be wanted.
She wants to be pursued...
Every woman wants to have a beauty to unveil. Not to conjure, but to unveil.
Most women feel the pressure to be beautiful from very young, but that is not what I speak of.
There is also a deep desire to simply and truly be the beauty, and be delighted in."
I think... a big part of being beautiful, is being able to appreciate the beauty around you- the beauty in a single glance, the beauty of a teardrop trickling off his cheek, the beauty in the labour of someone else, the beauty of a friendship without words, and the beauty in the poeple around you. I mean... that beauty has got to rub off you somehow right???
Father I don't want to sound pious... help me to mean this from the bottom of my heart... help me to delight in others (someone's got to do the delighting right... maybe that's my purpose XD).
For the benefit of people who were hoping for a normal update on my life-
Rachel is... passionately exhausted, and famous for sleeping in lectures =)
and OH... BIG NEWS... RACHEL IS GETTING BAPTISED THIS SUNDAY, 16TH MARCH 2008!!!
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Guess what? I went to bed... but I felt as though I had to tell you about this. So here I am again =)
Just 2 days ago, our medical sociology lecturer brought in some disabled people for us to talk to. My group was visited by the mother of an intellectually challenged child who had William's Syndrome, which is almost like Down's Syndrome, but the children are overly friendly in this case. By the way, the child in question was not really a child- he was 21. His biggest interest at the moment? Girls. (According to his mum- we never got to meet him because he was too busy making new friends in the campus.)
ANYWAY, my point is, she told us about her struggle to raise her son up, and how distraught she was when she finally had him diagnosed. As she talked, the rest of us just kept silent... we didn't know what to say... There was a point where she had to fight to keep control of her emotions- her lips were trembling, her eyes were brimming... Imagine just how much she went through those 21 years. Yet she said, the Lord gives and takes away. WOW. Such faith. At the end of the session, before I left, I asked if I could hug her. When I put my arms around her, her tears spilled over. I wished so much... there was something else more concrete I could do... but maybe that's where it all starts, regardless of whether you're Christian or not? With a simple "I care..."?
Spirit touch Your church
Stir the hearts of men
Revive us Lord, with Your passion once again
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cared for me
Let your rain
fall upon me
And this time, Rachel is DEFINITELY going to bed. It's TWO!! Good night!!
P.S. Nick (Ng)... where have you been?? Rachel misses you =P
8 comments:
Sob sob,y la only nick's name appear? =P
Kakakaka,und la und la =P
And they shud ask me go talk ma,kaka,then i can take change go around meet girls too! ^^
Plus,y la u make the mum cry?kaka
Kayz,anyway,wish u all the best there =D
Congratulations on your (impending) baptism! Yeah, the purpose of our lives might take a lifetime to find out... but in the meantime, live purposefully!
Dear Rachel,
haha, I promise you that I have been dropping by everyday. In fact, for the past few posts, you really got me thinking- about so many things. There was once where I wrote a rather lengthy comment then at last decided not to publish it- for shame of showing how shallow my thoughts are compared to yours, dear. Very cowardly. haha. Honestly, I've been having to learn from people and their experiences alot lately... It's good to once in a while sit back to watch and learn. I realise I have been too caught up with my own preconcieved ideas about many things. Then when reading about what others think and say, like this one here:
"You know how sometimes you're so caught up in the nitty gritty details of life and suddenly you realise a part of your life has slipped away without even saying goodbye?"
I realise that I so often need to be reminded about so many things. These are things I know at the back of my head and even constantly tell people- and yet I never paused to think if the very priciples of what I say actually apply to me? haha.
That's why I still check everyday to see ur updates and posts. =)) Silence does not mean I am not there. I have simply resumed the role of a learner. =)
I was very moved by what you did for the mum. What you did makes all the difference between a good and average doctor. To know that someone else actually cares and understands her struggles would have provided tremendous comfort and strength to her. Sometimes we always ask God what is His purpose for us... I now believe that to every individual that God sends to cross our paths, He has a different purpose for us. And I'm glad that of all the med students the lady could have met, she met you. A simple gesture that you can offer someone- the gift of touch- truly makes all the difference.=)
Anw, congratulations on your upcoming baptism. As you continue to draw closer to our Father, may you embrace His love and wisdom with a heart of understanding tempered with a sense of hope and fulfilment.
Nic misses you very much too... haha. That's the other reason why I drop by everyday... ('',)
Take care dear Rachel.
Continue to shine for His glory!
love lotz, Nic
Hi Rachel..I have always admired the way you approach life and the way you look at things and situations. Like Nicholas, I felt touched too when I read about your meeting with the mother of the child with William's syndrome. I guess that every occupation has its own way of helping society and we just choose to help in different ways..I hope that in time to come, you'll be able to find the path most suitable for you. =) All the best!
Ming-Yi
P/s: Hi Nicholas! ^^
Hello ming yi... How r u?? =))
Dear Nicholas,
Aww... I thought you were too busy to drop by... I'm touched =P By the way, come on... we're friends.. takkan we only share our mature thoughts and hide our immature side from each other? (though it's hard to believe you have one...) If it's hard to share here, my email inbox is always open to you.
You're never far from my mind. Take care!!
Love,
Rachel
hey hey!! me like your blog too!! ^^V
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